I realize I lack confidence. I've never thought of myself as pretty. I just wasn't one of THOSE girls when I was a kid.
Okay. It's never really been an issue until after having kids. The body changes, the extra weight. And recently gained weight due to some heavy stress, I've feel very uncomfortable in my own skin.
I want more for myself and my children, than the constantly being down on myself because the days are long, the years are short and we should spend those short years with the people, things and events that make us happy. Whether that's time with friends and family, sometimes, just taking are of yourself, reminding yourself that your more than a wife, mother, writer, friend is something you need to do. And taking yourself out of your comfort zone, finding new challenges, reinventing yourself, that might be just the thing you need.
Being part of a photo shoot might not be considered fun for people, or useful or have enough substance, but I like to dress up. I like shoes, purses, and makeup. I don't apologize for being a girly girl. That's who I am. So when this opportunity came up, I jumped at the chance to do something a little different. Honestly, I hate taking selfies and I don't put myself in front of cameras often because I'm overly critical of how I look, but this intrigued me. This was different.
I found Bomber Betty Makeup, the way other people get recommendations. I asked my friends on Facebook for a recommendation for a makeup artist. I needed a headshot for the Wizard World Website and that's when I met Jessica Sawicki.
After explaining my needs, we set an appointment time and she came to my house. I've never had my make up done, not like this. It was custom, all for me, and I looked great, if I do say so myself. I loved the make up so much, I've been buying it since 2o10.
One day I received an email about a vintage photo shoots. I was intrigued by the glamorous clothing, fun vignettes, and best of all, hair, make up and me time.
I borrowed a dress, circa 1960 and that led to the hairstyle and makeup looks.
I was hesitant when I first saw the hair. Without make up I felt a little school marmish and even considered taking it down. Rather than freaking out, I gave myself time in the make up chair and let Jessica fuss and dab and powder and perfect my face. As the look came together, I saw the vision and frankly, I couldn't stop looking at myself. I'm not generally vain like that. But my skin was clear, the circles under my eyes gone. I no longer looked stressed or felt rushed and the colors were where colors should be. I smiled and felt good, I felt beautiful and even after the photo shoot, I couldn't stop looking at myself. It was weird, it was a strange feeling to look in the mirror and see such a different me. Shall I say confident?
A do realize we shouldn't need a full face of make up and fancy clothes to feel pretty. But what that day did for me was remind me that I'm kinda special and I deserve some quality time alone with me. I'm good, I'm smart and I'm capable. Sometimes we just need to be reminded.
I will say, the below picture. The toughest, most uncomfortable shot for me. Either I never knew how to flirt, or I simply forgot how.
Below photos with vintage beauty products. I'm actually sitting on a old hair dryer chair.