Something happened to me in the last few weeks; a confidence thing I think. It was a direct result of quitting my job. It's an unfamiliar feeling but it's like a drug, I can't get enough of it.
I quit my job 5 weeks ago. I'm just now finishing up my project, transferring my job duties to a new employee, training other co-works to replace me. I have one week left, and I have for the first time in two years, have a chance to breathe and see myself differently.
The job from the beginning, I believe was a mismatch for my skills. Not a writing position, and not responsibilities that I had a background in. The job was however, an opportunity to try something new. But the something new was nothing that interested me or anything I liked. It probably from the beginning was the wrong path.
Ending this job freed me. Fortunately, I'm able to quit without having something lined up. I can't take time off and deal with my kids who have been through difficult times and have challenges ahead of them. I can use the time to pursue my dream. And as I end my projects and train and make decisions about my future, I learned something interesting about myself, something I never would have thought before….I'm freaking awesome!
After training two replacements, tested, worked through issues, wrote standard operating procedures, set up the database, prepared the data, I realized I can do anything I set my mind to. I'm smart, I'm capable and as the confidence grows, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. For the first time, I feel smart, sexy, beautiful and most importantly, confident. I made a decision, followed through, and the world opened up for me in a way that hasn't been in a very long time.
Not everyone can quit a job, (I'll be applying for contract work in a few weeks), but we can honor who we are by listening to what we need and what we desire.
I won't be bored. I have 2 books I'd like to have ready by the end of the year, I have my kids I plan to hang out with and a life that I want to make my own.
Here's to growth and change and learning to love yourself.
See where this journey of self-discovery started, when I failed at the job, tried something new and realized what it was that I really want to do.
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