I was 7 years old when I read my first Nancy Drew book. There was something in that smart girl that resonated me and I wanted to read every adventure. But I didn't just want to read the stories, I wanted to write them, create my own world, characters and adventures.
Life, it sometimes gets in the way. Infertility, a difficult pregnancy, the death of a child, threw me off of my course, the path I set for myself when I graduated college.
It took a wake up call, meeting a high school classmate, a published author to fuel my jealously, to snap the dream back to me. I finally wrote that book.
It took all of 6 weeks from start to finish, all 170 pages of it. It took at least 15 drafts two of which were self published. I hired marketing help.
I wasn't ready. I didn't understand how to edit, forget about using Twitter and Facebook effectively. Without holding up my end of the bargain, marketing, well it left me back to square one.
A horrible book release for book 2, left me constantly 5 minutes away from quitting. Paralyzed to move forward, which is where I've been for over 2 years as I try to figure out y life as a non writer. But I still come back to the desire to make it right, to finally live that dream.
I've been lucky because had I not gone down that road, I wouldn't have met a collective group of great, smart women who have taught me some of what they know about marketing, writing and editing. And I would have learned nothing.
After careful thought, I re-wrote my first book again. I re-thought the entire series. Rather than selling books with flaws, I chose to improve the product. The premise was good but… I hope I fixed the but.
That is why I chose this major rewrite. I took a long look at the book and the series and pinpointed where I fell short. I took out chunks of the book, changed relationships and rewrote what turned out to be a majority of the book. Though the story is the same, it gets there in a different manner. One that I hope answers questions, feels complete, with characters that are worth reading about.
I often wonder why no one has said to me, you're an awful writer you should quit. I've mostly experienced encouragement, just enough to ignore the bad reviews. Just enough to try again. Maybe this time I'm nearly 10 minutes away from quitting, and at least in the end I know I've tried.
I'm very proud of version 20 of The Day of First Sun and I look forward to it's release. I can't wait to share.
It's been an emotional few years picking myself up and dusting myself off, but I did it. Sometimes it's all we know what to do.
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