I've been blocked for days. I'm editing a book and writing a second. I had hoped to be done with the second book by now, the problem is, that book wasn't going well. I scrapped it again because it's just not coming out the way I wanted it to and now I've been unmotivated and even when I sit down to write, the words aren't coming. I'm mentally exhausted. In the last year since releasing She Wulf, I've been on an up and down roller coaster of emotion and self-doubt. I haven't been able to focus on which book should be the second in the series. Where do I go from here?
Just for fun I looked up writer's block on You Tube. I didn't watch the entire video, I simply have no patience for it, but what I did get from it is this, give yourself permission to write garbage. It's the idea that the way to break through the block is to simply write. Books don't get written if words aren't put to paper.
Who hasn't put too much pressure on themselves as they attempt to fulfill their dreams. I'm feeling that pressure. I'm overly critical and have developed a fear of losing my hold on my dream. To keep that hold, I work every day. I write something everyday, I work on Twitter, and Facebook at the expense of my children and my relationships and myself. I've lost my balance and now I'm blocked.
When we feel paralyzed by fear or uncertainty, the key to pulling ourselves out of our funk is to create junk, jump into a problem with both feet without analyzing it or over thinking it. Just do it. I think I've heard that somewhere before. The most important plan is to just write it, just do it, stop thinking about it. Stop letting the block become the obstacle that derails you.
I experienced that recently in my day job. Taking a job that involves me calling people on the phone and selling sponsorships. Who was I thinking I was when I said yes to that? I couldn't change what I did, I wasn't able to control the nature of my job and I forced myself to stop thinking about the fear. I realized that working outside of my comfort zone would benefit me regardless of what I was doing in my life. So after twirling in my chair, I made my phone calls. It wasn't perfect, I wasn't perfect but I did it.
By not dwelling on the past and swimming in the despair opened me up to new opportunities. Whether it be a job or an unexpected story line, controlling the fear gives you a new approach to the problem. So if you write something awful, that shouldn't be seen by anyone else, that's okay. That's what the edit is for. At least the story is moving forward and you gain word count. Say to hell with the writer's block. You're better than that.