My name is Sheryl Steines. I’m an introvert, I’m a mother, a wife, a friend. I’m also a survivor. I wasn’t always a survivor. I used to be a victim of my circumstances. As good as my life might seem on the outside, and I’m not saying that things haven’t been good, behind the scenes, well they’ve oftentimes been one bittersweet, emotionally devastating event after another. Failed job hunts, infertility, a hard pregnancy, caring for a terminally ill child, post-partum depression. They came at me in rapid succession. I couldn’t breathe. With each new experience I would ask myself now what and blindly wind my way to the solution. I didn’t survive those experiences. I merely passed from one to the other until I was an empty and all I could say was, I was a victim of my experiences.
When you feel as though you’re living in a whirlpool you can’t quite stop and take time to figure out what it is you really want to do with the rest of your life. Lost and confused, unable to keep a job in interior decorating, I had to look long and hard to figure out that what I really wanted was to write. From the time I was seven, that was my wish, my end goal and making that decision I made a change that changed everything.
Writing gave me a voice. Allowed me to express myself and explore what I buried deep inside. It gave me confidence, I lost weight, I straightened my hair. You get the picture. It was the single greatest decision I ever made for myself.
The writing’s been wrought with challenges. It hasn’t gone as I expected. But it saved me and thought I didn’t sell as many books as I hoped, I had to get a job to pay for the marketing, I’m so stressed out that I fail at work and at home and with my friends, I persevere. I’m no longer a victim of those bad experiences. They shape me but they don’t define me. I’m not just a mom who buried an eleven month old baby, I’m a woman who picked up the pieces and found a voice one that I can use to inspire, listen or help someone else get through their own hardships. Instead of hiding in fear of those experiences I’m choosing to grow stronger and redefine who I am. I’ve learned a lot about myself as I’ve taken on the challenge of writing a book series and I discovered that I’m so much more than I gave myself credit for. I fight and I defy odds and I move forward without apology. And I’m sharing myself, opening up and exposing everything. Because I do have a voice and I do have something to say.
That’s who I am and if someone else, just one other person finds strength or acceptance, than the pain and tears will be worth the effort. Look for my new book chronically my experience as an introverted sales person called Introvert To Sales Goddess, coming soon.